if you hire me

i will please you

Done

I am.

My eyes feel like hard boiled eggs covered in salt

That is the best description I can think of. I have officially been staring at the computer screen for 5 hours straight. xdeathx

So, its crunch time for everyone. Everyone's scrambling to get their IP finished. I'm close to being done. Kind of. Composition 1, VertMelancholia is ready to be printed. My 100ft roll of luster paper came in a couple days ago. Composition 2, HorizMelancholia is... coming along.

My biggest obstacle now is working this thing until it cannot be worked anymore and balancing everything. There is some blending and fine tuning that needs to be done as well. I think in a couple more days this piece will be finished and ready to print!

In other news... school... -____- bleh.
Also, I'm pretty sure I'm getting carpel tunnel... no joke.

Almost there

Click for the larger view. I've only got 20 more inches to go. :)

Survival

I've survived New York. I have more interviews. I now have options.

I am so stressed I could pull my hair out and rip my scalp off with it.

I have so much to finish... so much to refine... people to please... deadlines to make... places to fly to.

I dunno what to do. I don't know if I'm handling things right. I need to not wait for someone to tell me "good job." I've learned that will never really happen.

Tomorrow I'm working a lot... like a lot a lot. My IP project cannot be a flop. I don't want it to be.

Work all day, worry all night

Today I spent a few hours working on expanding my piece horizontally. So, here are the new additions I've made to this horizontal composition.

Hopefully the overall feel of this composition will remain as ethereal as the last.

EXHAUSTED :(

This month has been and will continue to be so crazy busy. I'm super stressed out. I have midterms this week, essays due, and then I have to get a hard copy of my portfolio printed. Next Thursday I am leaving for New York City for two interviews and studio visit. My portfolio has to be OUT OF CONTROL SWEET. AHHHHHH, I'm super nervous.

Also, I will have to look for apartments while I'm in New York. I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO LIVE!!! Then, later this month I have to take a trip to Chicago for an interview with a firm there.

AND, I have to get design work sent out to Grooveshark so that I can hopefully be embraced by praise?! I just want them to like meeeeee. I love Grooveshark and I use it everyday. I would love to be able to represent them with my artwork.

As for IP and art school... that is also kicking my ass. I have worked on my horizontal piece a bit. I have refined the background, took out some parts that felt too heavy and awkward, and added some more textural elements and shapes. It will hopefully begin to balance itself out as a I continue working on it and expand horizontally more.

First Project

Yay! I'm starting my first project with Grooveshark. I'm excited and have big ideas. :)
Also, I got another interview in New York for a graphic design position. I'll be heading out to NYC in March. Three interviews on the 19th. :| Geez. It'll be a scary and busy day.

For IP, I'm finishing up my postcard image. I'm going to continue working on my horizontal composition. I talked to Mark about the feasibility of my final display ideas. He seems to find no issues with it but has asked me to explore a more dynamic or evocative positioning of the two pieces. He thinks they would be interesting if they intersected or were connected. He questioned what a break between the two pieces would mean. I think that to understand each piece, they must be separate.

The progress I'm making at home...

So, as all my professors already know, I have pneumonia and an ear infection. T_T I feel like shit.

My last meeting was with Danielle and Michael. They both gave me a lot of great feedback. We decided that I didn't need to try and make some gimmicky contraption to house my compositions. They can hang freely on their own on a gallery wall. The second thing we came up with was that my two compositions hanging right next to each other would be very awkward as one is very tall and skinny and the other very long. So, I think my solution would be to get a corner spot in one of the galleries where my piece could stretch up and down on one wall and go horizontally on the second. This way they would be separated but together. Hopefully, they won't compete with each other and the formats won't contrast too hard.

Danielle enjoyed the look of my vellum print but I explained how I disliked it because there were no absolute blacks in the print. She suggested I try to fill in the black with a black pen or marker on the reverse side of the print.

I thought that was a good suggestion so I tried it.

But, I don't think this would work. At first I was like "yea this totally makes it super black!" but then I realized yes it was making it so black that it was eliminating the gradients. So, I can't use this method. Also, my hand is so shaky I couldn't make an accurate line.

Progress Report

Here is the progress I've made today on my horizontal composition. I spent about 3 hrs on it.

Danielle and Michael came to talk to me today and they really helped me out a lot. So, I intend to hang my compositions freely, as in no weird set up or kitschy, and they will reside on two separate walls. This is a great idea because then these two very long pieces won't be clashing as much. Hopefully, I can snag a corner spot so my two pieces can be near each other.

I have a lot of experimenting left to do with my vellum print out. I'll put pictures up when I get the chance.

I made a Behance

http://www.behance.net/EileenTjan

I've been super sick lately and work has just slowed down. I am on so much medication that I barely feel like myself. :(

I have been productive though! I started a Behance portfolio to try and get some of my stuff out there on the interwebs.

I'm resuming hardcore work productivity tomorrow. I have to. I'm determined.

Everything I do counts. Everything I make needs to be perfect. I feel so much pressure to impress people... I just want to succeed!

Oh also...

I made this tonight in attempts to overcome feeling sick and drugged up. I thought I was being productive. I like it... too bad I can't turn this in for extra credit. :p

Also, I'm pretty sure today I told John from Grooveshark that, "I like to design space, you know like outer space." T_T omg... medicine is making me loopy.

Infamous

Found this while googling Mickey Mouse for some reason.

I'm going to be designing for Grooveshark!! :D I'm very excited.

I rode into the sunset

Here's my first post on my horizontal composition. Today I've spent almost 6 hours messing around with this thing in and out of illustrator and photoshop.

I'm happy with how its progressing. Its no where near complete. I would say maybe... 20% of it has been illustrated. It has much more of a spatial quality than my other piece and it feels very much like a painting. Its introducing a lot more colors than the other piece, although color is still a minimal element.

Comments welcome!! :O And as usual, click for a larger view.